[15 Dec 2009|10:25pm] bl00dysunday Dear you, what to say, what to say... Boise is an adventure within itself. it's funny to think that you've lived at a place for all of your life (or most of it) and still haven't experienced some of the things that it's worth. one of my good friends, sara, left town yesterday to move to new york city with her friend faith. growing up here I've had many friends leave and I'm used to the notion. in fact I think every time it happens, it hurts a little less. sara was one of those friends I could tell any secret to and have it be safe, you know? Good people are few and far between, and getting to know them so closely is even less of a chance. I feel like the friends I've kept are for a reason. I'm not a fan of people, in fact I hate most of them.. so finding the ones that i truly connect with is something special. and now I'm finding that all of them are in different states scattered across the country... Most of the time I'll shove this fact into the back of my mind and pretend that everything is okay. but I only live for a few things and one of them is finding and appreciating the beautiful people that life has to offer. I feel like I've found the special ones that inspire me and have changed me for the better. but at the same time, realizing how young i am, makes me feel like that's such a naive thing to say... Long story short, I miss my best friends.. I miss the closeness and the security and the love that they've always provided. Sure, we're still good friends even being so far apart. but I just feel so much nostalgia these days. I constantly wish everything was the way it was before- when everyone was still in Boise, and things were simple, and love was a joke, and friendship meant everything- it even came before boys. I don't know exactly when I turned into an adult, but I almost don't believe it. today I found a quote from an old journal that said "life is just living." sounds dumb, but it's so true, right? life itself is simple, but we as humans are the ones that make it complicated.... in other, lighter news... the more I think about Alaska the more I miss it. thinking about working at KPL again makes me anxious, but everything is worth a second chance. It seems like I never know whats ahead of me, but that's my favorite thing of all... Talk to you soon, Virginia 1 comment|post comment

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